For some people the holidays are a joyous celebration. For others, recent loss casts a shadow over the festivities. The permanent absence of a loved one causes a shift in long-held traditions. You may be one struggling, or you may be privileged to walk alongside the struggler.
Welcome Angie Clayton, author of Peering Into the Tunnel, as my guest blogger for this post. In her book she shares her experience of grieving alongside a friend who lost her daughter. If you’ve struggled to know what to say or do, or to understand the feelings of one suffering loss, get her book. It’s a short (46 page) read available on Amazon.
The information in her post centers on the holidays, but grief is year-round. Please take the time to enter into the grief of your friends no matter what time of year. Let's help each other, let's enourage one another throughout 2022. And if you want to read more of Angie's posts, check out her blog, framingthe days@blogspot.com
What if Christmas Cheer feels like Christmas Drear? - Angie Clayton
Chances are that you know someone who will be grieving their way through the holidays. Someone is missing, and missing out, and all that’s left are memories. This is excellent, from Sarah Nannen: “Holiday host etiquette: If you’re inviting someone to your home and they’re grieving, be sure you’re inviting their grief to attend, too. It will be there anyway.”
It’s so natural to be tongue-tied around grievers. We want to offer comfort, somehow, but words fail us, or worse, we say all the wrong ones. Our intentions are always good, but sometimes instead of offering comfort, we simply feel uncomfortable, afraid or nervous.
Maybe we have some deep grief of our own, and maybe we haven’t faced it. If so, another’s outward expression of grief may be hard to take. It’s worth examining whether we tend to hold hurting people at bay, or come in close – if indeed we do hold them at bay, why? Are we afraid, uncomfortable, nervous? Is it hitting too close to home?
There are lots of ways to hold grievers at arms’ length. Sadly, some of those look and even sound very “spiritual” but can actually be quite damaging. A word of advice: DON’T OFFER ADVICE. When I stop and think about that, I realize that I have absolutely no standing to advise anyone about their grief.
I asked a few friends two questions:
1) What do you wish people knew?
2) What are you feeling leading into the holidays?
Those responses are woven throughout the rest of this post, in their own words.
One friend, whose young adult daughter passed away suddenly in April, said this:
[I wish people knew] that just because seven months have gone by, please keep checking up on me. It’s harder when the world just goes on and the cards have stopped coming, and offers of help are not there anymore, like they were. Our daughter’s birthday and immediate family members’ birthdays and holidays (Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas) without our daughter are so difficult, especially the first year.
Another friend talked about losing her husband, many years ago now, and said, “It has been a long time. He has been gone longer than I knew him. I do ok now. But he lives in my heart every single day.”
And this, from one who recently lost her husband of 58 years:
I think sometimes we do not realize how important it is to stay in touch with a widow. They need a good support system. A card, a phone call, a listening ear, or lunch can mean so much. I have been so blessed with the support system of my family and friends. My children have been here every week to make sure I have food and any other thing I need. Their surrounding love has helped me get through the “firsts” - the first birthday after, the first Thanksgiving after. I have those who are walking with me, but what about those widows who are not that fortunate? My heart goes out to them.
They want to hear your stories about their loved one. They want you to be brave enough to SAY THEIR NAME. Don’t shy away – your fears of “opening wounds” with stories or names are probably unfounded. Remember that there will never be any new stories to tell or memories to make.
One friend said, “I love when our daughter’s name is mentioned and notes of remembrance of special times are sent. Those are like gold to our family and especially myself.”
I can personally testify to the impact and comfort of the cards my mother-in-law Pat received after Pop died – the ones that included notes with special memories of their time with him were especially meaningful. While we can say out-loud words to them, when things are still so new and raw and overwhelming, a note may be treasured and remembered when words might be forgotten.
The good news is that there are some simple and fairly universal ways to connect that truly will comfort our grieving loved ones. But we feel so inadequate, don’t we? There’s a passage in 2 Corinthians 1 that I love so much:
“All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”
Do you see that? God not only comforts US in all our troubles – He does it in part so that we can comfort others. That is a powerful notion, and the knowledge that God has equipped us to comfort our loved ones should give us some courage.
So here’s what we CAN do. We can be helpers along the way, by continuing to reach out, even if you don’t understand, even if you don’t get a response. Or if you get an unexpected response. By accepting, really just accepting, the way their grief is coming out, or not coming out. Remember that your expectation of what their grief should look like may be completely disconnected from their reality. Be careful not to judge.
Remember that if you want to come in close, it must be on their terms. Period. Anything else will be like a dripping faucet, like annoying noise.
Grief often must take a very solitary path. One friend said: “Sometimes being alone with grief is good. Sometimes it is not. [But] it is not up to others to decide the moments.”
Stop.
That’s profound … it’s not up to ME to decide when I want to come alongside, it’s up to my grieving friend. Sometimes they do need solitary space. And sometimes they need YOU.
So spend time if you can, keep reaching out if you can’t. Whether you are physically with them or reaching out to them some other way, LISTEN. Even if they don’t talk. Even if they only cry. Or sit there staring. Listen to what they are saying. To what they’re not saying. Tune in to them, instead of tuning into your own natural desire to “fix” this or make it better somehow. You can’t, you will be thwarted, and chances are you will not be a help to your friend at all. A friend who has lost two children said:
The grief is there, even when I’m smiling; acknowledge my grief - say their name; my tears are an invitation to sit quietly/silently next to me; resist the urge of trying to say something to make it better - even a hug, or, “I remember, too” might be all I need.
The holidays are just HARD. Think of all the traditions altered - the family pictures smaller, maybe a favorite recipe or movie that sends a griever reeling. Unexpected tsunamis of grief, I call those, and they can hit out of nowhere. This is so true, and it made me cry: “Doesn’t matter how long it’s been - there’s always an empty stocking, there’s always an empty chair.”
Most prepare themselves as best as they can, knowing what is likely to come. They often “pre-grieve” the event – perhaps the two weeks leading up to it have been so very hard, but the event itself turns out to be less painful than expected. I asked my friends how they are feeling leading into the holidays, and these are some of their responses:
Leading up to the holidays? It varies day to day: anxiety, sadness, tears, numbness, lament, resignation, “girding my heart” in preparation for the inevitable sense of loss and needing to hide behind my fake happy face so that I don’t ruin everyone’s happiness.
I'm feeling sad, nervous, afraid that the deeper grief could return like when I had first received the news of her death. I am afraid of going backwards on my grief journey. I am afraid of the memories (good and bad) that could come up. I am nervous about finding personal handmade ornaments that she had made over the years and memories of her in all the Christmas boxes. I am fearful about taking off the lids of the Christmas storage bins. I am starting to cry, just writing this.
I am very much looking forward to celebrating Christmas with my family. There will always be an element of sadness, and perhaps a tear or two in my heart for the loss of my sweetheart in that he is not here to share in the hugs, laughter, and kisses with me. But for me, Christmas tells of a hope and joy that man in himself cannot achieve by himself. It brings me stability in my life that no matter “what is NOW,” Christ never changes in His love, His message, His care and fellowship with me. It will remain the same now and forever. This makes the sadness bearable, knowing it is for only a little while and I will laugh with him again. And family - Oh! How precious it is to share your heart with them in such a time as this.
EVERYONE can relate to grief, whether in small or big things. Pain is pain, grief is grief. Yes, of course some kinds of grief are more complicated than others and that’s often when we say, “I can’t imagine what it’s like … what you’re going through.”
I will leave you with this challenge: PLEASE TRY. Try to imagine their pain, dismay, disillusionment, hopelessness, as they are feeling it … and also their relief, their joy, their peace, when it comes. We must not have expectations, of ourselves or others, for better or for worse. Let’s come around and under them, like Aaron and Hur when Moses’ grew too weary to hold his staff.
Moses’ arms soon became so tired he could no longer hold them up. So Aaron and Hur found a stone for him to sit on. Then they stood on each side of Moses, holding up his hands. So his hands held steady until sunset. (Exodus 17:12)
They could not do his work for him. But their words would not have helped him to hold that staff up. Neither would their discomfort or fear or unwillingness to be close to a really hard thing for fear the weakness might spill over onto them. They undoubtedly did not understand the importance – the eternal significance – of what happens when we quietly come in close. Let us find our grievers a place to sit and rest, and then stay right there, doing the things they’re too tired to do, and mostly just BEING. Being with them, loving them, carrying them through the holidays.
That’s how we help. I know … it’s hard to imagine.
PLEASE TRY.
Thanks, Angie.
Blessings to each of you, my friends,
Ruth
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